I've thought about this for the longest time...Woaaahhhh! Hoooooaahhhhh! lol
Valerie once said to me about 'other people' that I don't talk to anymore, that they are windows.
Her point was that when you meet someone, you open up a window, and that window stays open until you have a fallout or stop keeping touch with him/her. Then the window closes. I had a really bad hang up with certain relations and friends, but after she explained that to me, it really helped to get over everything.
Now, though, I feel that way with everyone I talk to. Who knows if me and you will still be friends and talk over coffee. I really enjoy your company, but I have no personal attachments to anyone.
I look at everyone that way, and just think about that window closing one day. I really do like everyone in the circle, but once again, I continually fight with my thoughts that one day, we won't stop to catch up and have that cup of coffee. It troubles me, but in the end, that window had to close sometime, and you and I don't need each other anyways. Life will go on, you and I will both make new friends, see new places, have different experiences, and hopefully, be happy in the long hull.
By the way this post wasn't directed towards anyone specific. It's just my thought process. I love all of my friends, but I consider this my best defense mechanism towards the pains come with separation.
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"I really enjoy your company, but I have no personal attachments to anyone"
ReplyDeleteThis is so sad! But I guess it is one way to deal with growing apart from old friends, which is unavoidable. Personally, I would rather risk the pain, because I think relationships (friendly or romantic) have so much to offer if we let them.
ALSO! we never got a chance to discuss Cuba and Che! I guess this means you have to come down to isu. .
ReplyDeleteYeah I do have personal attachments to some people, but not very many. I think that's unavoidable to not have that someone... a friend. It doesn't have to be a bf or gf, but just that really good friend, that's there for you.
ReplyDeleteIt's more so to keep the people I meet at arm's length, which is a double-edged sword when you think about it.
And yes, I will be visiting because we have some discussin' ahead of us! =) lol
I think the windows metaphor runs a little more deeply because even when a window closes--whether it be from blunt force or just the random orientation of the wind--a fair amount of sunlight remains and illuminates those things formerly lost somewhere in the shadows.
ReplyDeleteI think a lot of people share your sentiments. I for one do.
ReplyDeleteand the Power Rangers are gay.